After over two months of arguments and two major fights with my wife, I have now moved to a hotel and looking for an apartment to live, while waiting for me beloved wife to calm down, so that we could speak and sort out our problems.

In the meantime, I found out that I have Major Depression and started to take medication, which hopefully could control my mood and hope in the long run, when I united with family, I will no longer be that moody and gave so much stress to my family.

Depression is a problem, as my doctor suggested, caused by the way I was brought up, always being left alone since I was 4 and I still remember many horrible scenes in the family when I grow up, which hopefully with the help of my doctor and councilor, I could tackle them now before they cause any tragedy to me or my family.

I truly love my wife and that's why I tended to care too much, which caused stress to her and also because of my insecurity, things turn quite bad some time. I really have to change and improve myself to be a fit and proper person to love and to be with my family.

God, please grand me strength and health to tackle all these problems, I know you are always with me.